Why is it never on the list?

Although the To-Do List has rarely been longer, and I have no choice but to plug on and check off more than any insane person would set out for herself... Although I failed to actually remember to take the Adderall I've been recently needing, strangely, way more than ever, and now it's after 3 and I wouldn't dare take one 'cause I would never in a million years be able to go to sleep tonight and therefore get the rest I'm going to need before the alarm clock goes off at 5:30 tomorrow for an even more grueling day... Even though all that is true: All I Ever Wanted In My Whole Entire Life EVER...

is a nap. Just a tiny, little, cozy, snuggly, 30 minute nap.

Is that so wrong? 

But never mind me! Back to the list, then?