It's how I look for balance
Friday, 14 November, 2008 at 11:18 AM ;)
The thing about eating raw, fresh, unadulterated fruit is that it's perfect just the way it is. The Red Navel Orange I ate this morning was cool and pure on my tongue. This blog post actually has very little to do with oranges - red ones or otherwise. I just took the photo this morning and thought I'd put it in here to trick you into thinking this was going to be a Happy Melody Blog Day.
It's possible I'm writing about food again because it's the one thing I haven't messed up today. For some reason, this afternoon has hit me like that proverbial ton of bricks and I feel The Feeling Of The Severely ADD Person Who Is Not Medicated (because the meds calm her mind but make her body feel like she will jump out of her skin.) Which is fine, I know - this feeling always passes eventually, and you learn to live with it, more-or-less. But I have many changes going on at once, which overwhelms me quite a lot today, turns out.
If my mom were here she'd say "tackle one thing at a time," which she knows as well as I do is way different in theory than it is in reality, although of course it's her voice that's gonna' get me over this hump as soon as I publish this rant. I'll post it here for my readers to see, and declare that this afternoon is going to move much better than the earlier part of the day did. And then I'll go grab a notebook (even the notebook has become an item of obsession - I have very few pages left in this book and Why Oh Why didn't I buy an extra so when I run out of pages I can transition seamlessly?) and make notes about some of the more pressing matters, and reorganize the tasks and once I have clarity, I'll get back to work. The computer lists and calendars? Days like today make them the most annoying items ever. I need to hold paper and pen in my hands.
A reminder list of happy things to finish this off before I grab that pen:
- It's my Daddy's birthday today and we had a lovely chat this morning. Also, he's getting better, little by little, which is very happy news.
- I started today with exercise. It's a good new habit that makes me proud.
- I've been overwhelmed before and so have evidence that the feelings eventually go away.
- Everything I've eaten so far today has been Seriously Good For Me.
- I got a nasty chore out of the way that I'd been dreading.
- My clients all love me.
And stuff...
Happy Friday! Hope you can also stay in out of this rain like I am!
Melody
A midafternoon nap may not fix everything, but don't knock it!
Now a change of scenery. Friend's out of town and I was going to drive the half hour tomorrow morning to care for her kitties until Sunday. Think I'll go tonight, instead. Because who in my right mind will want to get up at 7 on a rainy Saturday and drive a half hour just to give a kittie a pill?
Hoping some completely different surroundings will help me get a handle on all that stuff I wrote in my notebook. Before my nap. :)
Happy weekend, all!
Reader Comments (4)
You should be proud ,exercise is'nt just doing you good now , it's like putting health in the bank . (maybe not a good saying right now given our global economy, but you know what I mean). :-)
Have a good weekend.
That's a great way to look at it...thank you! And I am proud. It's kind of a huge deal for me to stick with this.
Hope your weekend's good too.
Like I tell Mom, just make the next wise decision. I know I easily get bogged down with all the planning and looking ahead. STRESS. FUL. Like your mom says, one thing at a time. Make the wise choice, and be proud of yourself even if you don't make the best one. Your value doesn't rest in what you do; it's who you are. And now I'll stop being Dr. Phil. :)
And I like how you inticed with a picture of an orange. Funny.
Kendra, I like that advice. "The next wise decision" sound almost manageable!
Heh - glad you appreciated the food bait. :)